One of the things I’ve been trying really hard to cultivate over the last couple of years is a sense of wonder and whimsy. I spend a lot of time in my head. I plan…
Essays
Into the Wilderness
Luke 4:1-15 Jesus returned from the Jordan River full of the Holy Spirit, and was led by the Spirit into the wilderness. There he was tempted for forty days by the devil. He ate nothing…
Hungry To See Myself
I’ve told the stories before but I keep going back to them because of how formative they were for me. First, Ellen Degeneres. Her short hair and baggy boys clothes. The way she was…
How I Used to Pray
I used to strain in prayer. God make me better. God fix me. God fill me. God make it happen. Change it. Give me what I want. Make me who I’m supposed to be. Desperate…
Models that Matter
When I was in college and was realizing that my queerness was here to stay, I remember watching Rosie’s show every single day. I’d record it when I couldn’t be home. There was such comfort…
Childhood Mirror
A selfie in a mirror in my childhood bedroom. At a time when this bedroom was no longer mine. Now the house is gone, too, passed out of our family and into the hands of…
Chest Surgery Joy
Today is the 13th anniversary of my chest surgery. I honestly can’t quite believe it. Probably the most vital part of my transition in making me feel whole and right in my body. …
Asking Hard Questions
In college I dreamed of being in theatre. I auditioned over and over again and never got cast. I had a conversation with the head of the department and he told me I was as…